Goddess: A Love Letter

"I want you to be disappointed and heartbroken
as the idols come crashing down from the shelf
and shatter on the ground into millions of pieces
their shrapnel ripping your heart apart with betrayal.

I don't want this because I'm vindictive
I take no pleasure in any pain
but because it's the only way you'll get that this love
is the stripping away of everything non-essential
so you can know
there was never anything
standing
between
us."

"Love Sprinkler," Cartoon by nakedpastor David Hayward

Leaving Christianity Playlist

Sometimes I lose my faith. This is the soundtrack when that happens:

Hozier-"Take Me to Church"

"Every Sunday's getting more bleak
Fresh poison each week."

Wicked-"No Good Deed"

"One question haunts and hurts
Too much,
Too much to mention
Was I really seeking good?
Or just seeking attention?"

Sarah McLachlan-"Dear God"

"The hurt I see helps to compound
That Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
Is just somebody's unholy hoax."

Mutemath-"Odd Soul"

"I once was a son
Now I'm on my own"

Within Temptation-"The Truth Beneath the Rose"

"Pray for me cause I have lost my faith in holy wars
Is paradise denied to me cause I can't take no more?"

Within Temptation-"All I Need"

"Don't tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don't tear me down
You've opened the door now, don't let it close"

Calvin Harris, Florence Welch-"Sweet Nothing"

"It isn't easy for me to let it go

Cause I've swallowed every single word
And every whisper, every sigh
Eats away this heart of mine
And there is a hollow in me now

So I put my faith in something unknown
I'm living on such sweet nothing
But I'm tired of hope with nothing to hold"

Jennifer Knapp-"Inside"

"Do this and don't do that
Which you think you can't take back
Well, who in the hell
Do you think you are?"

Janelle Monae-"Cold War"

"So you think I'm alone
But being alone is the only way to be
When you step outside
You spend life fighting for your sanity."

Jewel-"Goodbye Alice in Wonderland"

"Yes a heart can hallucinate
If it's completely starved for love
It can even turn monsters
Into angels from above."

U2-"Stand Up Comedy"

"I can stand up for hope, faith, love
While I'm getting over certainty
Stop helping God across the road like a little old lady."

Idina Menzel-"Let it Go"

"And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all
It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through." 

Foxes-"Holding Onto Heaven"

"Can't take it cause you think nobody sees what you're doing to me
I'm telling you guilt is in your eyes
I hate what you've done
What you've made me become
Don't sleep
Face the night."

Panic! At the Disco-"This is the Gospel"

"And truth be told I never was yours." 

U2-"Invisible"

"It's like the room just cleared of smoke
I didn't even want the heart you broke
It's yours to keep
You just might need one."